Well.. my husband watches porn now everyday and I think sometimes masturbates to it too which really really hurts and makes me feel very bad about myself and how I look. I just consider it cheating. I got depressed after that. The worst thing is that I think he is using me for his pleasure because I’ve realized that he watches porn and then wants to have sex with me, I even think he imagines some one else instead of me when we are in bed.
He says he loves me and all and tries to make his best during intercourse, but I think he is only imitating porn. What should I do? I did try to look good to him but nothing seems to be enough. He keeps lying to me every time i ask him and this hurts me even more. He spends most of his time alone and only spends time with me if he wants “sex”. Other than that, checking websites and then some porn.
He knows it hurts me and is something against our religion.