I caught my husband looking at porn on my work computer. He did this in the past and he said he would stop. That computer ended up crashing due to viruses (go figure) so my work sent me a new one. Needless to say he it started up again. He would clear the history to try and fake me out. I caught on to this. I also allow my 6 yo daughter to play her kid video games on this computer and he knows this. Finally I installed a “watchdog” on the internet that blocks all pornography. It worked great but he must be looking at porn in his office now.
He never asks me for sex instead I believe he is addicted to porn. It is much easier for “him to do it himself” because there is no emotional connection. At this point whenever he makes some type of sexual innuendo about “us” I almost feel sick.
I feel I am an attractive women and am told so by others, except my husband. So, I am celibate. I am keeping my legs shut. He is cheating on me after all with all the porno chicks out in cyberspace. Eventually he will decide that he wants me again and that is going to suck. Isn’t that terrible? Feeling like you don’t want to have sex with your husband? Being a celibate married woman and being ok with that. AGGH! this is not what I was expecting out of marriage. I have kids so I’ll just be the best mother I can be and lock up my hooty.