I am 19F , and I am really scared of men and relationships. I don’t know how to articulate my exact feelings but I will try. Since I was a teenager I have always been scared of romantic advances from guys, I was in a co-ed school ,so obviously I got lot of proposals but I always rejected them citing an excuse that I am not allowed to date till 18. Which was untrue because my parents were extremely liberal and there was never any restrictions. Now I am in college, and everyone wants me to start dating including my parents. My mother believes that I should date people and mix with guys of my age but I don’t want to. I went on dating apps after being forced by my friends, but I never liked it there . Every time a guy gets interested I get scared. I have been on dates but the experiences were horrible, the guys were nice but I was continuously shaking with fear . I even knocked over a glass of water when a guy tried to hold my hand. Not only that I hate when any men take interest in me or compliments me ,I hate when men look towards me on the street . I feel physically sick . I don’t know why is this happening, I don’t want to date or be in any relationship ever …I just want to be left alone. I feel lonely and left out sometimes because everyone around me is moving on with their life while I stand still. I honestly don’t know why is this happening, I had platonic guy friends and I was ok with them hugging me but as soon as anyone takes any kind of interest in me I freak out . Before anyone asks, no I am not asexual or lesbian, believe me I have tried to get with girls but I am not.I am attracted to guys but I am scared