My(26M) ex-wife (30F) and I have been divorced for a month now. I have moved houses, and changed my phone number, and somehow she still winds up at my door at odd hours of the night. I still get nudes and sexts from her in the daytime just like I would have when we were together.

We have hooked up six times since the divorce, and honestly it’s been the best sex I’ve ever had in my life. I hate how much I enjoy it. I hate how good it feels to be with her. I hate myself for letting her stay in my life. I hate that I can’t stop myself from giving in to her.

She stayed the night last night. I woke up holding her, just like I used to do when we were married. She’s there, laying in my bed right now, still sleeping, like she didn’t go crazy and try to make my life miserable. I fucked her like I still loved her last night, and I honestly don’t know how to feel about her anymore.

I’m so tired.