I ‘m a 30 year old married woman.

I had stated my problem in my last query regarding my husband and my best friend being involved together physically and I couldn’t stop it.

Basically, I ended up having revenge sex and multiple affairs, some with random men and a few I hooked up through my friends to get even with my husband. (All this the first time) but no luck.

I still crave for my husband and the simplicity of marriage and commitment which I have lost for sometime now. I confessed to him mentioning that I did stray before in one of our drunk evenings together. He was surprised and somewhat confused at my ability to consider another man inside me.

He said it was disturbing that I went to this extent due to him not being able to leave my friend for sex. He asked me : that now that I had tasted cock (had sex with other men outside marriage), can I still mend ways and stay faithful or would ever want sex outside marriage? In which case he too would also try stop having sex outside marriage.

I gave thought to it and requested him we try staying faithful as it was worth our marriage.

Fortunately, my best friend who had got married recently stayed away for a while (a very short one though) due to which we bang each other very often. I know that most of the times he is thinking about her but I let it happen.

The bad part is on a girl’s night out when I was really high, I was seduced by a guy who did some dirty dancing with me. I couldn’t control and went with him on the sides and fucked him thinking it’s a one off time.

Now, the biggest problem is: My hubby has stopped his affair with my bestie completely but I crave for this Guy every once in a while. This Guy had the thickest dick I had never even seen and felt. It was unbelievably thick which I couldn’t even encircle with my one hand. Even the extra large condom size doesn’t fit him and he can’t use one for the same reason. Having him fill my pussy and stretch it was a completely different experience.

I just couldn’t just do it once and forget him. So I visit him once a week but end up being so guilty as I am unable to honor my word of staying committed to my hubby and fear losing my relationship with him.

Having being fucked by such a thick and massive dick (I see stars), I just can’t stay away how much ever I try. I also know that whoever has had sex with this guy always comes back to him. He isn’t a keeper of any sort and the very idea of leaving my hubby for this guy is never going to work out….plus I really love my hubby.

So, Guys what should I do?