et me start by making it clear that my husband is my lover, soulmate, and he has absolute respect and love for me. We have been married for nearly 18 years and together since we were 16. We are a loving couple who have found our life partners for life’s journey.

We have indulged in BDSM (not extreme) and bondage for many years, and we swap roles of sub/dom with very few issues. We have a safe word, and we have tried most things. However, I have the desire to be forced to have sex with my mind telling me that it is against my will. I actually want my husband to be quite rough with me, throwing me on the bed, ripping my clothes off and holding me down. I want him to gag me with his hand and force himself on me. He could slap me and verbally abuse me. I suppose you could say that I want him to rape me.

Am I entering a dangerous (and, perhaps, weird) area? Does anyone sympathise with this? How should I discuss this with my husband?