hello !!

I am an unmarried, 25 yrears male. I like mature aunties and I am sexually attracted towards them. 5-6 yyears back, during college years, there was a women with 2 kids living on rent in my house. I was sexually attracted to her and I masturbated thinking of her. They bulit their own house and so left ours. We were in contact till the present.

Now the woman is 36-37 years old and her husband is out of station for months. She is bindass, jolly and quite lazy in nature. Few days back, I visited her house for some work and my lust for her returned. I decided to seduce her. I satrted discussion on sexual matters. (She said she is satisfied with the present ), I asked her if she watched any porn videos. She replied her husband had brought a porn video once.

Seeing this opporunity, I played a porn clip on my laptop with her consent. After seeing the clip for 2-3 mins, she left the room saying she is having a headache. After this, she started a discussion that in our generation there were magazines not clips and one guy had given a magazine to her. She said she scolded that guy. She talked about her previous boyfriend in college.

I think she was uncomforatble with our age difference. She also talked about her husband’s trust. I did not ask for any sexual favour and had just showed her the porn clip. I was too sexually aroused. I asked her if I could jerk off in her bathroom and she agreed. We had tea and I left her house.

From that day, we are in contact with each other without any change in behaviour. My behaviour has changed with her and I am quite friendly and visit her house frequenlty. I masturbate daily thinking of her. I am going through an emotional turmoil. Sometimes, I think, I should ask her for oral sex or any sexual activity. But I think she is uncomfortable with the generation gap, due to old age I Indian custom of trust.

I cannot understand what to do now and am having sleepness nights. Please HELP ME