I don’t know how to deal with this awful situation I’m in anymore! I do love Colby, my husband. I adore him very much but, we’re having a horrible problem at the moment.

I knew Colby hasn’t been happy in the marriage for a while. He works a very hard and demanding job out of the country, so when he’s gone, he’s usually gone for anywhere from few weeks to months. By the time he comes home, he usually is excited and wanted my attention.

As much as I’d love to give him attention, it is just very difficult because I have to take care of the kids, the house, and my mom. So often by end of the day, I’m just totally beaten and don’t want to do anything besides having time to myself.
Also ever since my mom moved in about a year ago, I’ve not been able to sleep well at all so I start to sleep in guest bedroom because Colby would try to snuggle with me or touch me whole time I’m sleeping and I don’t want that.

I did feel really bad for him and would try everything I could to keep him happy when he’s home. I’d try to cook his favorite meals, tell him I love him, give him room to do what he wants as he is a very restless and active person, etc…

Few days ago, I found out Colby was having an affair when he’s oversea. I was so upset and heart broke. I confronted him about this. He ended up blame it all on me and says he’s sick of me avoiding him and treats him like an unwanted stray animal and he’s done with trying to keep me happy all of the time for nothing. He says I better fix my act up because he’s fed up.

I’m not even sure what to do any more. I do love Colby and our relationship used to be great and I really want to try work thing out. But at the same time, I honestly don’t know if I can even work this out because I’m so hurt and had my esteem destroyed by this affair.
I even look into option of divorce, but even if I do that, I’m really scared I’d lose everything because Colby is the bread winner but he work oversea and have a bank account oversea along with tons of contacts.
I think he just need to understand that I do love him but there are other people who really need me and I have to take care of them and that I’m really trying my best to be there for him and that just because I don’t want him to sleep by me or have sex it doesn’t mean I don’t love him.