I have a bad marriage. I get mistreated, but for some reason I am having a hard time packing up and leaving. I don’t know why. I guess maybe its because I am afraid I wont find love again and that I am desperate because when I was single I had an awfully hard time finding boyfriends. Maybe its because I love the indepedence and don’t want to have to live my parents again. Or maybe I am just being true to my vows: till death do us part. I don’t know. I deserve a lot better than this and plus I don’t need to be dealing with this when I am still fairly young (28). Before I got married I only dated one man. He mistreated me also. Even though he mistreated me I wouldn’t dump him. I just sit back and take it because I was desperate to have some one to love. I guess I just answered my question. I wont leave because I desperate. Plus things are more complicated now: have to go through a divorce, have go through lots of emtional baggage, have divide up all the funiture, etc.