Hi,

I am Salman, 20 years old. I have a cousin who is 26 and married. I am an introvert and she’s a bit shy too. We have grown up together in a joint family. We had a good bonding and we used to love each other’s company.

Everything was fine till 2011 and I was in the 10th standard. Our Science teacher explained to us about the human reproductive system and I was very eager to know about the female private parts. I never had any bad intentions towards my sister, and one fine day we were playing hide and seek in our house and there was corner created by the wall and the door. She was standing behind me touching the wall and I was before her pressing her boobs to my back.

From then things started going wrong. Another day, wew were going for a trip and I went to check whether she was ready or not and Damn!! I saw her naked and was awestruck. I forgot it and started being normal. Another day she moved to my room as two of our rooms of our 3 BHK flat were being renovated. We were sharing the same bed and aunt (her mother) allowed us to do that as she is elder than me.

I controlled myself for many days but finally I touched her.  Literally, I fell in love with her. She was in deep sleep at night and she was absolutely normal in daytime and doesnt know what I was doing with her in the nights. Everyday I touched her but I felt  guilty. Then, one day she caught me and I thought she would complain to my mom and dad but she didn’t. She was hurt (I thought at that time) with my behaviour. She was not behaving normally and she used to build a bridge with pillows while sleeping.

One day, I went to a movie and came home late and as usual went to my room. I saw her sleeping with no pillows. In the middle of the night, she kept her leg directly on my penis. I moved her leg and turned the other side. She held me tight from back. When I turned back to her again, she directly locked my lips with hers, but pretending as if she was doing all things in sleep. I understood her intentions and day-by-day, my courage built up. I began having oral sex on a daily basis and it lasted fo at least 3 years.

I was never happy with all this as my heart says not to do these things but my desire / love for her was irresistible. She never objected to my oral play. She always wanted me to touch, smooch, kiss and lick her. Whenever she feels satisfied or whenever she cums, she turns to the otherside and sleeps normally. She uses me like a sex slave and doesnt even give me a handjob.

Though I didn’t like what she was doing but I’m in love with her.  I cant resist her. She used to tempt and tease me with revealing clothes and touches etc. Even after the renovation was completed, She makes some excuses with aunt and comes to my room and sleeps. I was feeling pathetic, though my desire to feel her is being satisfied, I felt that I’m doing a mistake. She even insisted that I break her hymen and have sex with her. I somehow denied as I felt this was wrong. When things were going like this, due to some family disputes, we parted.

In 2015, she fell in love with a guy and married him. Now she has a baby. And after a long time, my family met hers and things were set right. One fine day, I received a friend request on Facebook from an unknown girl and I ignored it. I received a message from that person “Kindly add me”. I did not look harmful, so I added her. I chatted with her and she seemed to be known and very close to me from years. She tries to seduce me by sending semi nude pics and by sexting. I behaved normally. After a lot of research (on finding the same account on my cousin’s phone), I came to the conclusion that it was my cousin itself who was sexting me all these days.

She wants me to fuck her and rebuild our old physical relation and she comments: “I love you” on each and every picture on my timeline. I literally dont understand why she wants to do this. I tried to speak to her directly but she’s diverting the topic all time. I respect my aunt (her mother) a lot and I cannot face her. She keeps on saying that I’ve lost interest on her after her marriage and baby etc etc…

But its not like that and I still love her. I have feeling and sexual urge towards her. Is she not sexually satisfied with her husband or why she is doing all this? Is it legal to continue my relation with her as she is now married?

She will be coming to my place in a few weeks and I am sure that she won’t let me sleep. What should I do? Should I fuck her or stop her?