32 F

Please dont judge me … But I need some genuine advice …

I had an arranged marriage 3 years back..I was never actually attracted towards my husband ..I tried hard to make myself fall in line… The more I tried the more turned off I got from my hubby …

Life was ok otherwise but we women also have desires; so I knew the inevitable would happen one day ! I met this man one day in the office cafeteria who was from a different department… slowly we started eating together often , exchanged numbers and started chatting … He asked me out for a coffee .. I knew he was married like me… And I obliged . And before I could realize what is happening … I had already got physical with him .. not once but multiple times in a short span of two months…

My hubby really loves me and is a gem of a person … Just that I have absolutely zero attraction for him … Where as both me and my lover are crazy for each other … The problem is I feel extremely guilty these days … The guilt is so painful that I just can’t look at the eyes of my hubby for the grave betrayal I do to him. . This guilt is not enabling me to focus on my work and is even robbing me my peaceful night’s sleep…

I have promised myself multiple times that I would not meet my lover anymore , but each time I have broken it and we get intimate every weekend!! Just recently I came to know my hubby is secretly suspecting me ..I have deleted his no. And whatsapp messages and only chat with each other using an anonymous email id ….but my hubby being a smart guy will soon find it out.

I feel helpless … My desire gets the better of me everytime and so I can’t stop the affair…and I don’t want to lose the family status especially when my hubby is such s great man..

Please give your suggestions